Some Mundane thoughts

Recent Updates: Lot of Work. Lot of toxics Living in PG Living in bangalore Stop Socializing Least amount of masti, I have done for a long time. Lost sleep over work Tired and Exhausted properly But abhi kaam nahi karenge toh kab karenge :) Still a need to organise my life better Time to achieve some more of my personal goals Time to fuck up things less than I have done in the past :) And importantly time to sleep.

Ralationship

Realationship I cajoled you, I pampered you, Fed you with gallons of time, You promised you would be mine, You made me smile, You made me laugh, Now you make me cry, Until I die, I wonder why, And I wonder why?

OPINION DOES MATTER

It really annoys me sometimes when people try to impose their views upon my head in the most lubricous of ways. Everyone in this world is entitled to an opinion, I believe. It might not be the best or something that others don't agree with, but its still my opinion and I will stand by it.But of course, there are times when I can't quite convince my thoughts across to the other person, and it irritates me all the more when they don't even make the slightest of efforts to understand me. However ridiculous it may sound, I think people should respect each other for what they are. Why can't anyone just listen to me without being remotely judgmental about anything especially when I'm only trying to take things out? In the name of doing so, why do we get disappointed when things don't go the way expected or when people don't react favorably to our arguments ?You live life the way you want it, but there are people who expect you to do something else. And when expectations rise, so do disappointments or happiness whichever chooses to stand by you.You can't hate these people also, for sometimes these are the ones most dear to you. All this and more just makes me tug at my hair and run away to some place where I don't know anyone. The saner part of me just started screaming that none of this is worth it. The worst is yet to come, or is it over ? ( my sincere appoligies if it hurts anyone in person but it is just written on a very bad mood just sick of every thing i need a lot of energy to retivalize myself.)

Random Thought

'm going to leave work late today that's what my boss had to say and I smile My son is in bed with fever high I try hard to hide a sigh and I smile My man ran away and left me with bills to pay and I smile It seems I don't get tears anymore the ends of my cheeks are sore and I smile I cut my hand doing the dishes today and I come up to you and say "Can I take your order now?" and I smile Dedicated to all the ever smiling waitresses of the world, and to the one who wants to be one.

मेरा प्यारा तारा

रात के चुप सन्नाटे में तारों का शोर होता है ध्यान से अगर सुनो तो तुम्हारा तारा कुछ कहता होता है दिन में कितना भी रो लो रात में हँसाना उसका फ़र्ज़ होता है

To Prashant,

This post of mine is dedicated to a dear blogfriend prashant(Chai ke dukaan) to you dude you are simply wonderful this is for you and for your chai ke dukaan ;) असाम के हरे मैदानों में, या दार्जिलिंग के महकते बागानों में, ये कौन खडा देख रहा आशा भरी निगाहों से? देख रहा वो उन कोमल वनिताओं को, तो अपने कोमल हाथों से, तोड़ रही चाय की उतनी ही कोमल पंखुडियां, और उन पत्तों से भर रही सर पे बंधी टोकरियाँ, कौन है ये जो देख रहा है चाय को, के जैसे वो कोई सुंदर नारी हो, चाय जिसके रगरग में है, चाय जिसके तन मन में है, जय जिसके जीवन में है, चाय जिसके हर क्षण में है, कौन है वो बोलो तो, नाम मुझे उसका सुनना है... पूछते क्या हो, पता नही क्या... ये तो अपना prashant hai. aaur last mein eek aaur वाह ताज :D आसान होता होगा कहीं शायद इस से मर जाना किसी से इश्क करना और कुछ ना कह पाना hope u will like it.

Long Time

Dearest One and Ones, It has been a long wait for me to come to my ‘punching bag’ and connect with you. But even though it is a ridiculous time of the night.. er.. next morning really, I feel the need to connect with you and to let you know that all is well in my world. To all you beautiful people i am back to my favourite place and favourite activity of blogging.Its like you missed an entire days’ meal. Its like there is a gaping hole which is embarrassing your dress sense and it needs immediate attention. Its like you forgot or missed your morning prayer. Its like.. miserable !! Nothing has any priority when the blog has been delayed and so my deepest apologies for this late and not ‘in time’ connection with all u like minded people. From the early alarm on my mobile, from the chirping of the summer birds in the garden below, from the building traffic as the day progresses, from the sun as it peers intermittently through the building monsoon clouds… it has been an endless rush of life. office demanding job the busy working hrs...at (Tcs) coming home late and yet after all this doing what i love to do is like reliving me from great pain and refresh me completely. Anyways finally i am back again and hopefully so- many month of absence shall be made up in a day, but that is not proper. My commitment of a daily connect must be adhered to at all costs. Yes it is late. Yes it annoys some of those that care. Yes i do understands. But what do I understand, that is of ultimate importance. And I understand that what has been taken up must be completed.And that is my dedication and intent when I make the commitment of writing to you every day. When I miss out, I damage my dedication. I damage my intent.I would never ever wish for anyone to hurt or dent his dedication. A dented dedication is not dedication. It is an apology for a dedication. I would never subscribe to that. Which is why I am a troubled soul when I remain away from a commitment. Do not ever attempt to stop me from pursuing that. I am, because I write. I write because I connect with you. I connect because I enjoy your company. I enjoy your company .. because .. Gosh! getting addicted to you guy's ND your love.... So long hiatus break bring some thought that i have read some where and would like to share among with you. “Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.” “NO and YES are two short words which need a long thought. Most of the things we miss in life are due to saying NO too soon… or YES too late. “ ” Some people change when they see the light, others when they feel the heat.” “Every battle is first won in the mind of the General then on the battlefield.” There is very little to comment on for the moment. that i am passing by feeling top of the world Sleep is playing havoc within the system and I must give it some respect.. Till the morrow then.. with love .. Princess :)

HAPPY HOLI

Happy holi to all

missing prashant writing and other fellow blogger aswell

all theses days i can't keep myself away from blogging as i relise

it is an addiction.

iam back again after a long hiatus

anyway soon writing more.

AND I AM BACK AGAIN

WRINKLES OF MINE I stand in front of the mirror And look at my face Where did these wrinkles come from I exasperate. Are they wrinkles of wisdom Are they wrinkles with age Are they wrinkles from boredomor wrinkles from rage. Are they wrinkles from the sunOr from having too much fun. Are they wrinkles from smiling Or wrinkles from frowning. Wrinkles do have a story to tell Sometimes it is of happiness Sometimes it is of pain And sometimes it is just vague. Should we erase them Or let them be seen Should we just hide them Or is that being Vain. I dab on some creme And say to myself A few wrinkles on my face is not such a big thing Considering all that can go wrong in this world we live in. So I start again my journy with you people whom i was missing so much with a few wrinkles on my face!

Death!!:(

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009! 2008 was a very special year for me. i made some new friends, I cut off some rusty old ties, I learnt a lot about myself and grew in many ways from all those experiences over 365 days & nights. Sometimes you've just got to stop & listen to yourself not others. Cos you’re inner voice will never lie to you. If something is not right, then it's not right..... Don’t try to print a different color all over it just to get by...You’ll only be kidding yourself. Well it took a lot of time & heartache before i listened to my inner voice but eventually I did...and I' am glad I was saved before it was too late for me. 3 GLODEN LESSON I LEARNT IN 2008

1. Never believe an ounce of what people tell you about others until you yourself find out the whole truth.

2. Sweet sounding does not always mean sweet person, & unfortunately that may take a long time to figure out.

3. People that care about you will continue to care no matters what, the rest will vanish over time & space.

2008 was indeed a very special year in my life... a year that made me take many new steps ahead for my own personal development. I learnt to bite my tongue and bear the pain somehow when I couldn't take it no more.... I watched as my heart was ripped apart in the open , yet I stood there watching it all & coping with it all some how. And I worked out it alive. Stronger and able then before... & that's all that matter somehow.

And in the starting of this new year i welcome it with misty eyes alot of ( tears) , suffering & great pain for me will i ever able 2 recover 4om this pain or not??? and here i die the same death one more time. I am no more like how i use 2 be & As i write this post tears keep rolling down 4om my eyes oh! the pain is so powerful i am week ,i am misreable ,i want 2 die enough of the suffering Lord you really listen to us or you are really deff and dumb

Help me if you here my voice in the 4om of( prayers) please as i need more strength at this time .

In sad and crying mood

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