वस्तुस्तिथि

सोचा था किनारे पे मिलेंगी घडियां सुकून की ।

आंधियों से लड़ने की हिम्मत जुटाना ज़िन्दगी अब ।

पर सुकून कहाँ पाते शाख से टूटे पत्ते ।

Thought Provoking !!!

As per my daily routine i was reading Mr. Amitabh Bachchan blog he said that he Received a sad but pertinent sms on his mobile today, which became thought provoking, he like to share it with all of his blog friends nd i more over like to share it with all of my blog readers so that even who-so-ever will read this blog there tought will be provoked and may you all will also awake from your dormant stage nd realize the reality of this cruel world but u reader plzz..... don't carry any thought that Seniour Bachchan is paying me 4 this nd so only i am doing publicity i just like the thought nd it provoke my thought and makes me realize nd showcase one more bitter reality of this cruel world . “An ace shooter wins Gold and Government gives him 1+ crore. Another ace shooter dies fighting terrorists and Government pays him 5 lakhs. Guess the real winner !!”

AT CAFFE COFFE DAY!!!

Today in the evening when i was following my daily routine of having shaam ke chai at the bakery shop along with hot bhajji that time i received a call on my cell the name appear 2 be of my buddy good that he called i was about to step outside 4om my hostel newsy he said he is Hungary ND want 2 meet me i said OK man so we had gram gram bhajji along with tea at honey drop bakery then 4om there we plan 2 go to C.C.D for a chi - to - chat buddy wants 2 eat pastry ND i can't resist myself 4om a cup of hot cappuccino the conversation went very serious and interesting as he start discussing about my life these days and about my job at first i was not much interested in listening to him as i was very frustrated on the bundle of event that was not working for me despite trying my best more-over my half of the day 2day was not constructive so had a lot of mood swing too. newsy buddy was fully charge with his gyaan he start the conversation and all i was doing is noticing him speaking ,his facial movements the twinkle in his sparking eyes, he was talking allot of sense and practicability and if not at first now at least i was interestingly and quietly listening 2 him he said some interesting line in order 2 make me understand what exactly he wants 2 communicate to me which i quite like it and feel like putting it here for 2days post and it really makes me think now what ever he was saying was right with now almost complete moved by his conversation i was all lost and try 2 discover myself with my present position newsy i don't want 2 write all what happen there but i like 2 share the most intreasting and catchy lines which mould my attentation completely in his words which i quite find true ND real.

He said-

" when you blame the outside world,

you loose control of your own life.

the outside world decides your life,

Then life doesn't go the way you want to."

- BUDDY

(8:30 PM) AT (C.C.D)

24/09/2008

and at last i was in complete peace of mind i was compose and energize thank you buddy for making me energize and active GOD BLLES YOU

so finally ending the day on a happy note credit goes to buddy

:)

* (There can be lot of errors in 2days post i don't want to have a check i am feeling sleepy now kindly spare me)

बेनाम रिश्ते

इतनी सारी मुलाकातों में ढेर सारी बातों में कुछ बातें बस अनकही सी किसी कोने में रह जाएँगी झिझकती शुरुआतों में हलकी सी बरसातों में कुछ बातें बस चुप सी आँखों से बह जाएँगी कल की हर सूरत को साथ हमारा गवारा नही कुछ बातें बेवजह सी बीच में दीवार बन जाएँगी फिर जब बिना मिले या कहे राहें जुदा हो जाएँगी कुछ बातें बस भूली सी धुंधली यादों में याद आयेंगी नाम को तरसते कुछ प्यारे रिश्ते अनकही बातों में चुप मुलाकातों में झिझकती बरसातों में भूली यादों में हाथों पे तुम्हारे कुछ लिख जायेंगे और तब शायद देर हो चुकी होगी

Sahi Yeah Galat !!!

What is right and what is wrong?? How do we exactly define these terms…..what do you mean by saying he did something right or wrong…..why am I supposed to feel good when I hear someone did something right or feel bad if someone did something wrong. Who decides what is right or wrong and from a person’s point of view why doing wrong thing is bad or right thing is good. Right or wrong may be assumed as broad classifications each including a set of actions which forms a good or bad opinion in the mind of an observer. Actually mentioning the action is also not necessary just using word right or wrong would suffice. For eg:- He wronged him….opinion:-he did something bad(no idea about the action)…..What I understand from general point of viewis if there is any court of law with God as judge wrong will be punished and right will be rewarded. But are the laws objective or subjective. For eg Opinion about killer:-“Killing a man”…this sounds wrong…..”Killing a man who is rapist, murderer, member of mafia”..now it seems right…..”Killing an innocent man”..sounds wrong…..”Killing an innocent man because family, relatives of the killer were threatened”..now it doesn’t sound so wrong its sort of neutral….So all the laws which decide whether an action was right or wrong are based on conditions. In each action if one person is harmed other gains from it. We can say action was right if gain>loss, neutral if gain=loss and wrong if loss>gain. But how do we measure gain or loss…to each his gain or loss is most important. If we are so eager to classify things in right or wrong there should be certain laws based on conditions which define measure of gain or loss. But who decides these conditions, who decides whether in certain given conditions performing certain action is right or wrong….Society can’t be relied upon. Through generations of mindless propaganda our whole society is biased towards weak. Weak ,politically financially or legally, have exploited their weakness in such a way that whole mass sympathize, respects weakness of weak more then strength of strong. In any action if weak people suffer its wrong no one cares about if strong person is gaining from it. Actually society is biased towards suffering. In any action if someone suffers we neglect whole good coming out of it and term that task wrong . We cant rely upon society because its biased and cant be a good judge. So if we cant rely upon society it leaves the individual himself. But can we leave the whole power of deciding whether what he did was right or wrong on him. Each person has his own point of view and his own set of right or wrong. Even terrorist believes, with their own reasoning’ that what they are doing is right. Here at this point it starts getting funny we say your conscience decides what is right or wrong…you feel guilty on doing something wrong and happy on doing something right. But if my conscience says something is right and it doesn’t concur with society’s point of view then it means I don’t have a conscience. So at the end its society’s opinion that matters most. But as I said before we cant let society , an emotional biased impractical creature, be the judge of such crucial decisions. And since I don’t believe God exists and even if it does he isn’t going to come down to decide whether each action is right or wrong…I don’t think things like right or wrong exists. There are just actions…actions which each individual perform for his betterment or pleasure and they cant be right or wrong because as I said before we don’t have any set of rules.

Random Thoughts

speechlesssome emotions bubbling insidewant to come out but am not getting the proper words or may i say am confused am speechless wordless so what is this that i am trying to write am still not sure just trying to align my thoughts and think concentrate on what is occupying my mind Is This Helping Am not even sure of that so what am I sure of -my speechlessness my confused state of mindwhich is not allowing me to think reasonably OK enough of this crape nough Enoughhhhh Enuffffffffffffffffffffffff StOp just STOP!!!!!!!!!!!

useless words

she said: i know that you've been plotting to get me back but i should tell you you're never gonna succeed at that he said: to do that to get you back i'll have to first acknowledge the fact that you're gone and i'm sorry i can't do that coz it hurts damn too much. and i'd never want you to come backcoz i did something or said something i'd want you to come because you loved me which you never will. i know you wouldn't ever believe it but the fact remains i want you to be happy

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छोटी छोटी, मगर मोटी बातें किसी के चेहरे पे हँसी बन खिलखिलाती हैं तो किसी की हँसी को आंसू बन खा जाती हैं किसी के टुकडों को बाँध कर सजाती हैं तो कभी किसी बंधन के टुकड़े कर जाती हैं कभी किसी डूबते को तिनके का सहारा देती हैं तो कभी किसी सहारे को तिनके सा बिखरा देती हैं ये छोटी छोटी बातें

WHAT A WONDERFUL THOUGHT

"The rising sun age old yet new & inspiring lighting upthe world with its soft pink rays; just watching the familiar hues dance on the still water i return to emotions that never truly left just as the sun sets it rises again wide arms embrasing a new day". - Listeins-

DIFFCULT :((

It is that terrible terrible time of the year again. And the worst part, I am standing at the other side of the threshold this time. It is quite sometime now, that I have been bitten by the nostalgia bug and as the days are rushing past I am almost losing my nerves. Every corner, every tree, every bit of soil, the doors, the windows seem to me like frames drifting in front of my eyes. And in those frames I either see myself, one, two, three, four, five years back or I see them like reels of a movie playing in front of my eyes, that I can only watch but not participate in. As I sit up this night, the thoughts are impossible to ward off. And now I must write this or I will probably never be able to sleep again (ok, I will sleep in the morning :D). Really does it have to be this difficult? Why do I have to fight tears two to three times daily and let them out once in every three four days? And it is getting worse everyday. For everyday, nay every hour I realize how much I love everyone here. Everyone. My friends, the best friends I ever had. My juniors, whom I have laughed with, advised, scolded, joked. I realize I love even the ones I do not know by name. And why, because they remind me of someone I was. Someone I have almost forgotten. It has been so terribly long, this stay in this amazing place. Boy, I have grown from a girl to a woman. I was a girl once, it is so so difficult to believe. And now, I have lost so much of myself. I have lost fear, I have lost the sense of suspense, the fantasies of unknown. Life has become mathematics, add, subtract, differentiate into little parts and integrate and presto, its your life. Wow I have a job, wow i,ll be independent. I guess I would not know as many people so well in my entire life as I have known in this 16 month. I am scared ! Scared to death. How am I supposed to move on? How many times in life do I have to move on? First time I moved on, I almost lost my sanity, what next ? And even after ranting all this, and a feeling of frustration sweeping over me for I have ran out of more words, I feel I should go on writing, for so huge is this feeling, its almost like a deluge, and I need my sleep. I don't don't don't want to leave all this. Can you stop time? please? And after typing it out I realize the stupidity of the whole thing. Of course I am meant to go, like all of them before me, like the ones who would leave after me. It has got to be this way. Life's just begun. I had become too comfortable with the false start 16 month ago. Its time now to finally bury the corpse of that little girl who walked up flyover bridge at the world's longest platform, with the rain beating lustily over the corrugated sheets, one sultry summer afternoon. Oh I can still smell it. Does it have to be this difficult? whatever neway just being lil' senti nd emotion :( so blurt out on my post it's allready another day the time is 5:00 in the morning nd from my side time 2 say nite nite untill i write next post.:((