Some Mundane thoughts

Recent Updates: Lot of Work. Lot of toxics Living in PG Living in bangalore Stop Socializing Least amount of masti, I have done for a long time. Lost sleep over work Tired and Exhausted properly But abhi kaam nahi karenge toh kab karenge :) Still a need to organise my life better Time to achieve some more of my personal goals Time to fuck up things less than I have done in the past :) And importantly time to sleep.

Ralationship

Realationship I cajoled you, I pampered you, Fed you with gallons of time, You promised you would be mine, You made me smile, You made me laugh, Now you make me cry, Until I die, I wonder why, And I wonder why?

OPINION DOES MATTER

It really annoys me sometimes when people try to impose their views upon my head in the most lubricous of ways. Everyone in this world is entitled to an opinion, I believe. It might not be the best or something that others don't agree with, but its still my opinion and I will stand by it.But of course, there are times when I can't quite convince my thoughts across to the other person, and it irritates me all the more when they don't even make the slightest of efforts to understand me. However ridiculous it may sound, I think people should respect each other for what they are. Why can't anyone just listen to me without being remotely judgmental about anything especially when I'm only trying to take things out? In the name of doing so, why do we get disappointed when things don't go the way expected or when people don't react favorably to our arguments ?You live life the way you want it, but there are people who expect you to do something else. And when expectations rise, so do disappointments or happiness whichever chooses to stand by you.You can't hate these people also, for sometimes these are the ones most dear to you. All this and more just makes me tug at my hair and run away to some place where I don't know anyone. The saner part of me just started screaming that none of this is worth it. The worst is yet to come, or is it over ? ( my sincere appoligies if it hurts anyone in person but it is just written on a very bad mood just sick of every thing i need a lot of energy to retivalize myself.)

Random Thought

'm going to leave work late today that's what my boss had to say and I smile My son is in bed with fever high I try hard to hide a sigh and I smile My man ran away and left me with bills to pay and I smile It seems I don't get tears anymore the ends of my cheeks are sore and I smile I cut my hand doing the dishes today and I come up to you and say "Can I take your order now?" and I smile Dedicated to all the ever smiling waitresses of the world, and to the one who wants to be one.

मेरा प्यारा तारा

रात के चुप सन्नाटे में तारों का शोर होता है ध्यान से अगर सुनो तो तुम्हारा तारा कुछ कहता होता है दिन में कितना भी रो लो रात में हँसाना उसका फ़र्ज़ होता है

To Prashant,

This post of mine is dedicated to a dear blogfriend prashant(Chai ke dukaan) to you dude you are simply wonderful this is for you and for your chai ke dukaan ;) असाम के हरे मैदानों में, या दार्जिलिंग के महकते बागानों में, ये कौन खडा देख रहा आशा भरी निगाहों से? देख रहा वो उन कोमल वनिताओं को, तो अपने कोमल हाथों से, तोड़ रही चाय की उतनी ही कोमल पंखुडियां, और उन पत्तों से भर रही सर पे बंधी टोकरियाँ, कौन है ये जो देख रहा है चाय को, के जैसे वो कोई सुंदर नारी हो, चाय जिसके रगरग में है, चाय जिसके तन मन में है, जय जिसके जीवन में है, चाय जिसके हर क्षण में है, कौन है वो बोलो तो, नाम मुझे उसका सुनना है... पूछते क्या हो, पता नही क्या... ये तो अपना prashant hai. aaur last mein eek aaur वाह ताज :D आसान होता होगा कहीं शायद इस से मर जाना किसी से इश्क करना और कुछ ना कह पाना hope u will like it.

Long Time

Dearest One and Ones, It has been a long wait for me to come to my ‘punching bag’ and connect with you. But even though it is a ridiculous time of the night.. er.. next morning really, I feel the need to connect with you and to let you know that all is well in my world. To all you beautiful people i am back to my favourite place and favourite activity of blogging.Its like you missed an entire days’ meal. Its like there is a gaping hole which is embarrassing your dress sense and it needs immediate attention. Its like you forgot or missed your morning prayer. Its like.. miserable !! Nothing has any priority when the blog has been delayed and so my deepest apologies for this late and not ‘in time’ connection with all u like minded people. From the early alarm on my mobile, from the chirping of the summer birds in the garden below, from the building traffic as the day progresses, from the sun as it peers intermittently through the building monsoon clouds… it has been an endless rush of life. office demanding job the busy working hrs...at (Tcs) coming home late and yet after all this doing what i love to do is like reliving me from great pain and refresh me completely. Anyways finally i am back again and hopefully so- many month of absence shall be made up in a day, but that is not proper. My commitment of a daily connect must be adhered to at all costs. Yes it is late. Yes it annoys some of those that care. Yes i do understands. But what do I understand, that is of ultimate importance. And I understand that what has been taken up must be completed.And that is my dedication and intent when I make the commitment of writing to you every day. When I miss out, I damage my dedication. I damage my intent.I would never ever wish for anyone to hurt or dent his dedication. A dented dedication is not dedication. It is an apology for a dedication. I would never subscribe to that. Which is why I am a troubled soul when I remain away from a commitment. Do not ever attempt to stop me from pursuing that. I am, because I write. I write because I connect with you. I connect because I enjoy your company. I enjoy your company .. because .. Gosh! getting addicted to you guy's ND your love.... So long hiatus break bring some thought that i have read some where and would like to share among with you. “Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans.” “NO and YES are two short words which need a long thought. Most of the things we miss in life are due to saying NO too soon… or YES too late. “ ” Some people change when they see the light, others when they feel the heat.” “Every battle is first won in the mind of the General then on the battlefield.” There is very little to comment on for the moment. that i am passing by feeling top of the world Sleep is playing havoc within the system and I must give it some respect.. Till the morrow then.. with love .. Princess :)

HAPPY HOLI

Happy holi to all

missing prashant writing and other fellow blogger aswell

all theses days i can't keep myself away from blogging as i relise

it is an addiction.

iam back again after a long hiatus

anyway soon writing more.

AND I AM BACK AGAIN

WRINKLES OF MINE I stand in front of the mirror And look at my face Where did these wrinkles come from I exasperate. Are they wrinkles of wisdom Are they wrinkles with age Are they wrinkles from boredomor wrinkles from rage. Are they wrinkles from the sunOr from having too much fun. Are they wrinkles from smiling Or wrinkles from frowning. Wrinkles do have a story to tell Sometimes it is of happiness Sometimes it is of pain And sometimes it is just vague. Should we erase them Or let them be seen Should we just hide them Or is that being Vain. I dab on some creme And say to myself A few wrinkles on my face is not such a big thing Considering all that can go wrong in this world we live in. So I start again my journy with you people whom i was missing so much with a few wrinkles on my face!

Death!!:(

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009! 2008 was a very special year for me. i made some new friends, I cut off some rusty old ties, I learnt a lot about myself and grew in many ways from all those experiences over 365 days & nights. Sometimes you've just got to stop & listen to yourself not others. Cos you’re inner voice will never lie to you. If something is not right, then it's not right..... Don’t try to print a different color all over it just to get by...You’ll only be kidding yourself. Well it took a lot of time & heartache before i listened to my inner voice but eventually I did...and I' am glad I was saved before it was too late for me. 3 GLODEN LESSON I LEARNT IN 2008

1. Never believe an ounce of what people tell you about others until you yourself find out the whole truth.

2. Sweet sounding does not always mean sweet person, & unfortunately that may take a long time to figure out.

3. People that care about you will continue to care no matters what, the rest will vanish over time & space.

2008 was indeed a very special year in my life... a year that made me take many new steps ahead for my own personal development. I learnt to bite my tongue and bear the pain somehow when I couldn't take it no more.... I watched as my heart was ripped apart in the open , yet I stood there watching it all & coping with it all some how. And I worked out it alive. Stronger and able then before... & that's all that matter somehow.

And in the starting of this new year i welcome it with misty eyes alot of ( tears) , suffering & great pain for me will i ever able 2 recover 4om this pain or not??? and here i die the same death one more time. I am no more like how i use 2 be & As i write this post tears keep rolling down 4om my eyes oh! the pain is so powerful i am week ,i am misreable ,i want 2 die enough of the suffering Lord you really listen to us or you are really deff and dumb

Help me if you here my voice in the 4om of( prayers) please as i need more strength at this time .

In sad and crying mood

:(

KUCH EES TAREH!!!

घुमक्कड़ बादलों के संग हल्की सी सूरज की किरणों में झलकी सी आसमानी बातों का कुछ मतलब होता होगा आशाओं का रंग शायद नीला होता होगा

Kuch shades zindgi ke!!!

Kuch alag sa ees bar sirf kuch pic's jo kafi kuch kahte hai zindgi ke alag alag andaz ko bayyan karti hai Asha hai aap log eenko passand karge. :)

The reality & virtual space haaha;)

Merry christmas!!! Right now i am a bit emotional iam going back 2 memories some old ties some new friends all of them nd still lonely me :(( nd as-usual me myself nd the best part to discover more of me through my blog and by my post ;) right now i am thinking about a friend written few line for him want to dedicate to him. "with you around me ( in virtual space yeah) life was so much easy, so much fun, so much to look forward to, Now that you are no more near(in soul perhaps) i miss you, i miss the very thought of you."

Economists in a Different prospective.

Since i have also done post-graducation in ECONOMICS so obiviousally.I was going through jokes on economists, starting from post on freakonomics blog. Following are few nice ones. A top reason to be an economist - When you are in the unemployment line, at least you will know why you are there. Microeconomists are people who are wrong about specific things; macroeconomists are people who are wrong about things in general. I asked an economist for her phone number....and she gave me an estimate. If you torture the data long enough, Nature will confess. Eighty percent of rules of thumb only apply 20 percent of the time (including this one). A physicist, a chemist and an economist are stranded on an island, with nothing to eat. A can of soup washes ashore. The physicist says, "Lets smash the can open with a rock." The chemist says, "Lets build a fire and heat the can first." The economist says, "Lets assume that we have a can-opener..." The First Law of Economists: For every economist, there exists an equal and opposite economist.The Second Law of Economists: They're both wrong. Talk is cheap. Supply exceeds Demand. Joke-telling is not complete without bulb jokes. Q: How many economists does it take to change a lightbulb? A: Eight. One to screw it in and seven to hold everything else constant. But Chicago School economists are different. Q: How many Chicago School economists does it take to change a light bulb? A: None. If the light bulb needed changing the market would have already done it. Finally, Bentley's second Law of Economics: The only thing more dangerous than an economist is an amateur economist! You have been warned.

DIRTY POLITICS

कहाँ हैं राज ठाकरे.....और उसकी बहादुर gundo ki ''महाराष्ट्र नव-निर्माण सेना' ?? उसको बताओ.....200 एन0 एस0 जी0 कमांडोज़ ( जिनमें कोई 'मराठी-मानुष' नहीं है....सब या तो उत्तर भारतीय हैं या दक्षिण भारतीय) जो भेजे गए उसकी तथाकथित 'आमची मुंबई' को आतंकवादियों से बचाने के लिए. जिन्होंने इसलिए अपनी जान दी ताकि 'वो' जिंदा रह सके......जिन्होंने इसलिए अपनी नींदों की कुर्बानियां की ताकि 'वो' चैन से सो सके. जिन्होंने अपने लहू की सुर्खी से "आमची मुंबई'' नहीं ''अपनी मुंबई'' के माथे पर अपनी शहादत से तिलक कर दिया...........मुंबई किसी के 'बाप' की नहीं....''भारत माँ'' की है. हर हिन्दुस्तानी की है.....बिल में छिपे 'भाषावादी चूहों' से कह दो की अब वो बाहर आ जाएँ, बहादुर शेरों ने.....(वो चाहे किसी भी फोर्स के हों .....किसी भी राज्य के हों) मुंबई के खूबसूरत गुलिस्तान में घुसे वहशी भेड़ियों के कायर कलेजे अपने जूतों की एडियों के तले मसल कर रख दिए हैं.....!!! इस मुठभेड़ में शहीद हुए हर बहादुर हिन्दुस्तानी की शहादत को सलाम.......!!!!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

Bundle of incident happen since from my last post can’t really write them all but still I JUST WANT TO BLURT OUT some thing that really irks me like hell. Something that I still feel like dropping here on my post i am in grat pain and anger the aganoy has hit india countymen hard. yes i suppose u understand quite a well that i am here talking about the present situation of Mumbai Bomb Blast.It's one more time after 1993 the city is under attak and severely hit by the terrorist. MUMBAI UNDER TERRORIST ATTACK!! And this attack is not only on one place but SEVERAL LOCATIONS BOMBED AND TERRORISTS FIRING ALL OVER THE CITY. 5- STAR HOTLES UNDER SEIGE. TAJ - HOTEL,OBEROI HOTEL NARIMAN HOUSE BATTLE GOING ON INSIDE THE HOTEL.MULTIPLE ACTIONS ON. ARMY CALLED OUT. The very recent event of Mumbai bomb blast really shocked me from deep inside. Since from 3-4 day the entire day has been spent in front of the TV and watching in anguish and in anger the proceedings on the streets of Mumbai. My pain has been the sight and plight of my innocent and vulnerable and completely insecure countrymen, facing the wrath of this terror attack. And my anger has been at the ineptitude of the authorities that have been ordained to look after us(The current Government). As an Indian, I need to live in my own land, on my own soil with dignity and without fear. And I need an assurance on that. It’s really a TERRIBLE! TERRIBLE SITUATION! This incident has created a big question mark????... on the present government not only this but. A great magnitude on the current safety and security measures for a county of 1.2 billion people. Please come out people come out from the dormant stage from your cozy comfort. Feel the heat of the incident start cogitating about the next step take the fu....g damn politician out from the system use your grey matter and stand as one nation & not as people of different states, caste & creed. This is the time for each citizen of this country to act and behave in a dictated disciplined profile. This is the time for those that lead, to educate us all in a common curriculum bearing a common code of conduct. A code that shall bind us all as one collective strength. And the media of this county is yet another problem to all the pen vala's sir I beg Mr. /Ms. whosoever you the geniuses plzzzz.. Don’t be so f-estate, and give news only to generate the TRPs. It is a pity that the ‘intellectual media’ portrays the incident with is own way. Please understand what and where the feeling emerges from. I say, this all 'coz there is pain and anguish in what unfolds in front of me. Of the horror and magnitude of the incident kindly please see that and don't twist and turn the story in your own way with mirch masala and serve in front of the people to proclaim you as the number-1 news channel. it's the great shame on you yes the media of the country is equally responsible i am not writing this to put a blame game but as a whole the media is also responsible for the current situation of the country the ridiculous utterances of the system and those that run it. And actions to placate themselves of dire circumstances prevail among ruling governance. The recent news is that India’s highest-ranking security official resigned on Sunday, as the government began to reckon with the fallout from a three-day standoff with militants that raised troubling questions about India’s vulnerability to terrorism is that really solve our problem ? Now my question is to you people please take a step and cogitate I wish to fill my eyes today with flaming anger of the redness of the blood of the innocents of my countrymen! Be it the three top police officials, including the head of the anti-terrorist squad, Hemant Karkare who died in the bomb blast or the innocent Jewish family And as I join my hands in thanking the NSG and Army and Navy commandos, applauding their effort, as they move away from the scene of action. Gentleman you have been our true heroes. This was not your city; it was a part of your land, your country. You came in here as determined Indians and gave us the privilege today of being proud nationals. With great respect Love you all peace and more peace :)

SHUBH - DEEPAVALI

Aap sabhi logo ko mere aaur se deepavali ke hardeek shub kamniye

IT'S A BOY.......IAM SOOOOO HAPPY!!!

I have a new title to my name now.Someone will soon be calling me Aunt(Bua). on 11Th.October at 9:05 pm a beautiful baby boy was born to my brother and his wife. All of 2:25 pound,& every bit a bundle of immense joy, my nephew "Armaan " said hi to this world & of course to his proud parents we are richly blessed. As i write this tears well up inside i am bankrupt with words and expression. no matter how sincere,will & shall never be able to truly assuage the great. My emotions were so deep. i wanted my nephew to know that i was not just a grown- up playmate who came to visit & play. i was his family. i was someone he could always depend on. Someone who would always be there for him. Someone who loved him without ever needing anything from him in return. But Alas! i haven't seen him till so far he is of 12 days now & this post is also getting delayed for me to post so today iam in full mood to write about my feeling and emotions that i am passing by. What better topic one can get to write about in his/her post then talking and sharing about the new born edition in one family. All i wanted to say to God and rest ppl is a sincere Thanks. My Thanks to all those that gave me strength friends & Relatives that visited my sister-in-law & the new born at the Hospital & those that wrote in. All of them i personally acknowledge through this handy medium your love over whelms me.

वस्तुस्तिथि

सोचा था किनारे पे मिलेंगी घडियां सुकून की ।

आंधियों से लड़ने की हिम्मत जुटाना ज़िन्दगी अब ।

पर सुकून कहाँ पाते शाख से टूटे पत्ते ।

Thought Provoking !!!

As per my daily routine i was reading Mr. Amitabh Bachchan blog he said that he Received a sad but pertinent sms on his mobile today, which became thought provoking, he like to share it with all of his blog friends nd i more over like to share it with all of my blog readers so that even who-so-ever will read this blog there tought will be provoked and may you all will also awake from your dormant stage nd realize the reality of this cruel world but u reader plzz..... don't carry any thought that Seniour Bachchan is paying me 4 this nd so only i am doing publicity i just like the thought nd it provoke my thought and makes me realize nd showcase one more bitter reality of this cruel world . “An ace shooter wins Gold and Government gives him 1+ crore. Another ace shooter dies fighting terrorists and Government pays him 5 lakhs. Guess the real winner !!”